Prepping for Project

As this summer has already proved itself the best I've ever had, I am starting to get really excited about what the Lord will do with the next ten weeks of my life. Unlike most discipleship-oriented events I've attended, summer beach project does not cater solely to spiritual highs. Instead, I am embarking on a journey with my Savior to find my identity in Him as we go through good times and bad times. I'll be living in close quarters with 8 or so girls--some of which I may or may not know. I'm going to work hard and get up and go to work even on the days I don't feel like it. I'm going to have to follow some fairly strict rules and lead a discipleship group that I feel ill-equipped for. It will be no picnic. Yet, as the day of my departure nears, I have trouble experiencing any emotion other than excitement. As I have been getting ready for project over the past three weeks, praying and studying the Word, God has already taught me so much about who I am in Him and given me a small taste of what He wants to do with me and I'm hooked! In addition to the aforementioned hurdles, SBP seems like it is going to be full of adventures, new friends, building strong Godly bonds with my fellow sisters in Christ, perhaps even mending a bond once broken. Ten intense weeks dedicated to nothing more than spiritual exhortation. This calls for an incredible, though undoubtedly hard, experience.

Having only decided to go less than two months ago, I was very reserved in the beginning and reluctant to get excited, deciding instead to dwell on the negative and hardships I was sure to face. As soon as I called on God to begin preparing me for what He wants to teach me, however, my attitude towards the trip began to change. Even with this change of attitude I did my best to ask God to reign supreme over my summer, but was still having trouble at times giving Him control. I still felt I could handle what was to come. Then, a couple of days ago, one of the Campus Outreach staff called me and told me they were short on Dgroup leaders and asked if I would do it. Without hesitation I said yes, almost before I even gave it a thought. I told her I was super nervous about it though and was worried I would do a bad job. She reminded me that I would mess up and that I had to give it to God or I wouldn't make it through my summer. With this new addition of responsibility, I had no choice to constantly capitulate my summer and preparation to God. Whenever I start to feel anxious, I just remember that I need to submit that to God through prayer and His peace, which I don't understand, will fill me.

So here goes, I feel this summer will end with me a new person. I hope so. I want to constantly be changed to look more like Christ. I can't even fathom the journey that lies in store for me. I have no expectations, I am just freely giving every day to the Lord. I ask for and thank you for your prayers. I will update as much as possible to inform those that support me on what God is doing in my life.

Come Friday, its off to Destin!