The Judge

Lately, It's been a struggle for me to confess my sins to God. I keep thinking that things are going so well with us, that I would hate for something like sin come in the way. I have this picture in my mind of me looking up to heaven confessing my sin and this huge God looking down on me, disappointment on His face. "I've done alot in you, ya know" He'd say. And all my actions say to Him in return is that He just can't do enough. I'm just too sinful. He isn't powerful enough. Why would He want to redeem someone like me? I make the same mistakes over and again. I'm too much trouble...and the lies in my head keep feeding and feeding.

But this morning, He showed me that the picture I had in my head of how He deals with my sin, is far from truth.
Isaiah 43:24b-26 "But you have burdened me with your sins, you have wearied me with your iniquities. I, even I, am He who blots out your transgressions for my own sake; and I will not remember your sins. Put me in remembrance, let us contend together; state your case, that you may be acquitted."
-->So the truth is, if I hold onto my sin, I burden Him and make Him weary. When He blots out my sin, He does it for His glory and He does it forever--not remembering. He wants us working together, to talk through my sin so that He can have me acquitted, and I can be free of it forever. The reason for confession is not so He can then look down on me and be disappointed, He is disappointed when I sin and the moment I confess it is the moment He forgives.

It's funny how these things seem so elementary. Don't you learn this stuff in sunday school in like 3rd grade? Head knowledge is different from heart knowledge. a 9 inch gap that makes all the difference.