2 weeks down, 2 to go

What an emotional break this one has been. Aside from all that is going on with my family, my love life crashed and burned in less than a week. Oh well, guess I should have seen that coming. It's always too good to be true ya know? On a brighter note, it has been a most refreshing break thus far. I've been climbing both Wednesdays I've been home and plan to go the last two wednesdays. When I'm climbing, my mind, which is usually running 90 miles an hour, is blank. All I can think about is conquering the wall in front of me. It's the best release I have. As far as reading goes, my former happy place, it has been a pain doing so this break. Compared to last winter break when I read 8 books, these past two weeks I've hardly gotten through 2 1/2. I can't focus on what's in front of me when reading and I hate that. I just feel like I can't figure out who I am anymore. I feel like my family thinks I am a stranger and wish I weren't here. I'm trying to be helpful and appreciated, I just think my efforts are all in vain. I need a fresh start. Lucky for me, 2010 is but 4 days away and it can't come soon enough. I've always thought resolutions were a dumb idea; but i think the symbolism behind a new year being a fresh start might just be what I need. Guess we'll see. I'm trying to overcome hard times and not let it get to me. Count my blessings. Dwell on the good. My thoughts get the best of me at times but, mind over matter right? However the matter I must overcome are my thoughts themselves. mind over thoughts? seems a bit contradicting. I'll figure this out, I'll get through it. I always manage to, just gotta keep on keepin on....