A New Year, A New Me

Well now is probably the time for reflections eh? Let's see, this time one year ago, I had just finished up my first semester at Berry and my parents told me I had to transfer and this would be my last semester. I was still with Joel, things with us were going really well. Christy was about to come over in a couple of days to spend a little while with me. I was soon thereafter to leave for Winter Retreat with BOLD. Man, I hadn't even worked for BOLD yet. That next semester was wonderful. BOLD was amazing. I became really good friends with Dustin and finally felt like I was finding my place in the world. I went about that semester as if it were my last at Berry and it was fun. Improvathon, awesome group of friends, lots of training with BOLD. The week of finals, I find out I am staying at Berry, Christy is my roommate, and I'm going to be a Freshman mentor. I then decided I would be working on campus all semester in hopes of making lots o money and gaining lots of awesome experience. The latter worked out pretty good...the former...well not so much. But it was a great summer, full of independence and learning. I realized I'm going to be able to make it on my own and still be the person I want to be with the morals I've always stood behind. I learned alot about myself and I felt really put together. This past semester has been the biggest roller coaster of my life. I felt my biggest spiritual high and spiritual low. I hated my classes. Joel and I broke up. I found someone else later and went through what may be the greatest heartbreak I've ever felt. I made some really incredible new friends. I fell out of step with many of my old friends, but I know that's temporary. I did okay with my grades. I figured out what I want to do with my life. My family fell apart while staying together. I lost the person I found this summer.
I've never really been a huge fan of resolutions but I've never felt like such an impostor. I've never hated myself so much. I'm happy with where my life is headed as far as a career path, but I hate the decisions I've made in the past few months. It has taken me till the past week to realize that. So I'm going to give the resolution thing a try. I go to Passion this weekend and that seems like the best start to a new year. My goals this year?
1. Grow closer to God. That is always a goal on my list but as of late, it has been something that scares me and I have been trying to avoid it. Praying is about all I do to communicate to God and I am at a place where I wouldn't blame him if he didn't listen. So, I want to grow in him. In the ways that I was beginning to last semester. I want to fall in love with his words and be in constant communication with him.
2. In order to accomplish goal number one, I am going to surround myself with a different group of people. I have recently found some great folks who are very encouraging in my walk with Christ.
3. In order to fully accomplish goal number three, I am going to get more involved with Campus Outreach.
4. I am going to excel in my academics. I am going to do more than just what I need to get by. I am paying for an education and I want to get the most out of it.
5. I am going to dedicate myself, again, to BOLD. It is my calling in life and I want to really step up in that area. I really started to slack off towards the end of last semester and I want my passion back.

All of these things can really happen by getting rid of one person in my life and growing closer to God.

So, 2010 here we come. I am ready for ya!