As school is FINALLY winding down and home is approaching quickly, the stress that should be depleting is only growing stronger. Besides the fact that I have a paper due Monday that is way over my head and then 5 finals, home is not exactly a stress free environment at the moment. It's funny because our little "pot thoughts" for the week by the peer educators references family stress and things to do if you aren't looking forward to going home. It's hard because I know the decisions I'm making in life are the right ones, but they come off as selfish to my family.
Apparently this is just another part of growing up. Learning how to respect your parents and value their opinions, but realize that it's okay to make decisions they may not agree with as long as they are lining up with what God wants. I struggle so much with that. My parents opinions are the ones I value more than any. Even God's....Which is a sin. I just feel so guilty for making them think I am being selfish and being angry with them for not letting me make my own decisions. This, of course, is only piling on top of the regular stress my family is going through, which I don't want to add to. It's a hard place to be in.
So as I waste this time blogging classifying it as a break while writing my dreaded paper, I wish I were elsewhere. I was supposed to go to Athens this morning to watch a frisbee tournament but I decided last night I should really spend today working on schoolwork. Now, I question that decision. It was the right one, but I am so miserable here right now knowing I could be having fun watching some frisbee with some pretty incredible people. So, I'm in a sad mood this morning, reflecting on all of this.
I feel so complainy...what a terrible blog. I needed to vent though, so this is the place to do it. So, in conclusion, I guess we can say the learning process has brought me to two hard lessons:
1. sometimes you have to forgo your parents opinion in order to do what's best for you. 2. don't procrastinate so you can go watch frisbee in athens on a saturday before finals week.
Just trying to spread the wisdom...
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